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I went through a rough patch in my life were I didn't eat. I would go through a whole day eating barely anything. But I didn't think there was anything wrong with it but obviously there was it was a massive problem. I was tired I didn't have enough energy to carry me on throughout the day because I wasn't getting the nutrition I needed.

But I got this way cause I looked at myself and though I was fat because a group of lads from my school think its okay to call girls fat but hearing it over and over again made me think I was and I was starving myself to the point where I no longer felt hungry. I lost over 7 pounds in a few weeks I was losing weight by the minute but I carried on thinking it wasn't a problem because as long as i was losing weight i thought just maybe these lads would stop. I wouldn't have to carry on each day being called fat.

Then I met my best friend. All she ever did was eat I swear haha. All we would ever do when she came back from collage was eat Chinese food and ice cream. We would sit and laugh for hours.

But things change and people change.

I have changed so much in the past few months. Getting in a relationship then getting hurt; is hard. Its all just about finding yourself and being that person you want to be. I make so many mistakes and hung around with people I wish I wasn't with and then had another group of friends. But I constantly feel like i`m never good enough or i`m trying to prove myself to make others happy. Is hard.  I`m the only one who can change who I am or who i`m not friends with; and i`m the only person that anyone can blame for there mistakes.

It took time for me to slowly be myself again to be the person I wanted to be. But there is no perfect image, no one has to look a certain way and it took time for me to find that out. But luckily  I did. It took me time to accept myself but I do now.


Having confidence and being proud of yourself is all you need in your life.
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